Time

Of course time keeps moving, but i really am unsure of how it actually already is basically almost july.
This 'spring' has somehow moved quickly. Not necessarily on a daily basis, but when thought about in bigger pieces.

And definitely not when i think about the work that i have or have not done or need to still do.
Because i really don't feel like i've moved forward.

But then if i pause for a moment, and take a broader perspective on what has happened in the last 5 months, I've done some pretty incredible things:
Including but not limited to:
-having the opportunity to show my parents both Edinburgh and London
-participating in my AMP MA graduation ceremony
-drafting a hefty chapter 1 for my phd thesis
-taking a pottery class and creating a number of pieces
-gaining tutoring clients and re-finding a joy in teaching
-having steph visit
-training for an inline skate marathon
-traveling for 2 weeks to india (so big and could be so many separate bullet points here)
-visiting with a tfa friend who i haven't seen in too long
-completing the inline skate marathon in london in 2 hours and 18 minutes
-having to say goodbye to 2 close friends as they leave the UK
-dealing with a failed press release and the struggle to gain participants anyway
-creating/developing web technology to help my research
-finding a great mexican restaurant in edinburgh
-visiting the NE of england with alison
-deciding to quickly and intensely try to develop 3 new research projects to begin in august
-returning to this blog (hopefully beyond just now)

In a meeting with Adrian last week, he told me i was further than i thought. Since i told him how frustrated and stuck i felt. He figured that's how i felt, but he kept saying i was further. and then even asked me if i had considered when i would complete my degree. this question completely blew my mind. how, in the current situation, could i think about being done? when i haven't even finished one project yet? the game plan of how i saw this going has not been reality -- too many setbacks with setting up the technology and trying to get participants. but now there's a new game plan. and one that makes august and september crazy busy data collection time. and july's gonna need to be lots of writing and historical data collection time. but who knows what that will mean for fall. completion? i can't get my head there. but hopefully i can conquer what i want to this summer, and then i'll get to revise a fall game plan for sure. who knows?, maybe i'll even finish at least one of the projects.

for now, taking a grander look at the past months is what i want to do. a bit of a review. because there's been some cool stuff.